Auditioning

I'm a nervous wreck at auditions and competitions. I did not do well yesterday. I'm so disappointed in myself. It's been so long since I played for an audience. I was shaking, tripped over my own stupid feet, and then couldn't hear myself play at all b/c the amp was turned down too low when the band played together. :(

I know I gave it my best shot, but I also know that I could have played much better if I hadn't been so freaking nervous! I have experience, technical education, and theory knowledge. I had forgotten how nerve-wracking it can be and felt completely unprepared. Why didn't I do my labor deep breathing? I didn't even think about it.

I'm so sad. I know I completely bombed that audition. :( I'm afraid I'm going to get stuck on MediaShout.