Terry's going for his second Master's degree--this time, in systems engineering. I've encouraged him to go for it, and he was accepted into Southern Methodist University.
I want a Master's degree, too. I don't know in what field. I didn't exactly set the world on fire in college. I'd like to re-do it. It's not like I was incapable. I Just didn't bother to apply myself. I don't know if I'd even get in to a Master's program. And if I did, in what fields am I interested? I'd have to commit to a full time job upon graduating to justify the expense of a Master's degree. And maybe I don't want to do that. Maybe I want more children. I can't put a baby in daycare. I just can't. Maybe I don't want more children, maybe I want to care for the ones I have. Maybe I'd get a Master's degree and then be unable to find a job in the field for which I discovered a passion. Maybe I'd hate what I thought I'd love. I love learning, and I"m good at it, as a professor pointed out. I'm just not good at settling upon a course of study--or committing long term to anything except my husband and children, and perhaps the dogs.
I'm stuck in fricking Utah and a bit bored and a bit unsettled, missing my old life--but my old life was pretty much the same as this life, except we swam every day in our pool instead of walking in snow. Same insecurities, same questions, same lack of direction.
Are there any courses offered at a community college or YMCA that could challenge you, like a religion course or a literature course. I did that last year at the local community college. I took a course at the local community college in the general humanities. It was called something like Looking at Life and Death through the arts. It was probably one of the best courses I took EVER (including at college) It was so well done and so interesting. I'm thinking about taking another course soon and I met some great people too!
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